We’ve been going through a lot lately, and some of it has been related to my health. It’s hard to homeschool and take care of my family when I’m down with mono, bronchitis, pneumonia, and the fatigue that accompanies these illnesses. There are battles we’ve been fighting on other fronts too, and I’m sure the stress from those has taken its toll.
I’ve been brought low, to the end of myself. You know the burdens He wants me to cast on Him? Yeah, those are the ones I don’t have the energy to carry anymore. I can only pray, ask Him to work on our behalf in each situation, and pour my limited energy into teaching the kids, taking my medicine, and sleeping as much as possible so I can get well.
And I’ve found that’s exactly where I’m supposed to be—totally dependent on Him. It has been a hard lesson to learn. I want my total dependence on Him to continue when I’m feeling better. It’s what I’m supposed to be doing anyway.
“Ignoring what they said, Jesus told the synagogue ruler, ‘Don’t be afraid; just believe.‘”
Mark 5:36 (NIV1984)
It’s okay to give up. Total surrender is exactly what He wants! He can handle anything that’s going on in your life. As hard as it is to believe, He doesn’t need our help.
Don’t be afraid! Just believe.
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(((HUGS))) I know exactly what you mean. Been there…many times. It’s comforting to know, though, that in our weaknesses, He is made strong. Praying for you, sweet friend!
Thanks, Hope. You’re right. He is actually strongest in my weaknesses—because that’s when I let go of everything and let Him do HIS thing!
What a wonderful blessing to come from all of that! Praise and prayer sent up for you and your family.
Thanks, Danica! I’m praising too. He is good and faithful, and I know He’s going to come through for us in a big way. But I’ve got to surrender so He can do what He wants to do!
Jennifer ~ God meets us on our knees, doesn’t he? I am so sorry you are having a hard time. I am adding you to my prayers.
Thanks, Mary! Yes, He meets me in my desperation more than any other time—probably because that’s when I really stop to listen to Him. I think that’s why He allows me to be brought so low at times. I’m too stubborn to listen when I think I can handle everything myself!
Jennifer, I am keeping you in prayer! Please know that you are thought of and prayed for. I hope that gives you some comfort.
Blessings,
Lisa
Thank you. That does help. It’s all going to be okay! I’ve just got to let go and let Him be in charge!
OH…the miles are too terribly long today. I wish I could transport myself through these words on my computer screen!!!! Remember what you said to me….” I don’t do pitty parties”……Well, somedays, he just wants us to give up….so, he can give out!!!!! HE LOVES YOU!!!
I promise I’m not having a pity party! I’m finding such peace and freedom in letting go and surrendering—but it’s kind of a scary place to be too! He loves you too. Never forget that! I’m praying for you.
Thanks for sharing. This is oh so true as hard as it is at times. Praying for you as you surrender to HIM!
Thanks, Milly! Surrender is hard, but I’m finding there’s freedom in it. It’s nice to let go and let Him take care of everything instead of trying to carry it all myself!
Praying for a speedy recovery. Remember, “No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and all those who rise up against you shall fall”. Slow down and don’t sweat the small stuff. You are in the palm of His hand!
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Amen! Thanks for the encouragement and prayers!
Praying for you, Jennifer. Your words are certainly those that I can relate to. At times, I feel like God keeps loading on the trials to make us fully dependent on Him and to teach us grace along the way. None of which makes health issues any easier. Hugs!
Thanks. I know God didn’t make me sick, but He’s certainly using the experience to teach me to be fully dependent on Him! It’s not a fun lesson to learn, but it’s necessary!
Just said a prayer for you Jennifer, lots of (((hugs))) for you as well. I believe that God is working in you and through you right now in learning about being totally dependent on him as well as other things. You are an overcomer, you are strong in him, and have power. I believe you will overcome these illnesses Jennifer, God is with you.
Thank you, Becky! He is certainly working in my life right now. I won’t say that the process is pleasant, but I know the end result will be worth it.