Happy New Year! This is the first “Be Fully Persuaded” post of 2013! The series has run since September 2012, and I haven’t begun to run out of wonderful testimonies to share about God’s provision!
If this is your first “Be Fully Persuaded” post, welcome! We meet here every week to rejoice in God’s faithfulness to keep His promises and in His creative provision for every area of our lives. I pray that we are all encouraged to stand strong in our faith and that God will make Romans 4:20-21 a reality for all of us as we focus on Him and His Word:
Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.
Romans 4:20-21 (NIV)
Peace, Then Provision
I have shared several instances of God’s amazing provision for my family—milk and juice, diapers, and pink sneakers, to name a few. And those are the smaller ones! Read through the archives to see how God has provided medical care, houses, and much-needed encouragement, right on time.
What is hard to hang onto while you wait for God’s provision, for the fulfillment of His promises, is peace. I have struggled with fear and anxiety for as long as I can remember, and I’m sick of it. I have purposed for several months now to pursue peace with everything in me.
Jesus is the Prince of Peace. The Bible repeatedly says “do not fear,” “do not let your heart be troubled,” and “do not be afraid.” If I walk in fear, them I am directly disobeying the Word of God. Another way to look at it from a dear friend of mine:
To fear would be to insult the one who has never failed me.
Walking in peace instead of worry and anxiety is difficult. I have to spend a lot of time in prayer and meditating on promises from Scripture to overcome it. I also have to decide to push aside society’s idea that I can take care of everything myself. I can’t. In fact, I have very little control over anything. Most of the things I worry about are things that only God can fix, and He is more than capable of doing it on His own, without help from me.
I have begun to seek His peace before His provision. Yes, I pray about the situations that concern me, but then I focus on Him and how wonderful He is, how faithful. As I focus on Him instead of my problems, I find myself walking in peace while I wait to see how He is going to solve my problem or what He might direct me to do next.
Here’s an example of how this played out for me last year:
Princess Roo was on pricey infusions for over two years to boost her IgG levels. (We’re watching her closely. She may have to go back on them at any time.) We had to switch specialty pharmacies because of a new insurance company, and we were assured that everything was set up with insurance and taken care of.
Several months after we began getting her infusion medication through that company, we began to receive invoices for amounts that were considerably larger than what we had been told we would be charged. Every time we got an invoice, I called to talk to someone. Each time I was assured that everything would be resolved. I just needed to give the billing people time to work it out with our insurance, and I could ignore the invoices in the meantime.
The invoices kept coming, and the balance went up each time. It made me nervous because I knew we were supposed to pay as we went, and we couldn’t pay off the entire balance at once if it came due. Finally, after three or four more months, I called back. I was finally able to speak to a supervisor who assured me that he had the right people looking at it this time. He told me to call back the next day at a certain time.
After I got off the phone, my mind automatically went to the worst case scenario: the insurance wouldn’t cover the part of the balance they were supposed to, and the company would want immediate payment of the balance, which was an impossibility. I had a choice to make.
I decided to choose peace. I prayed about the situation. I really laid it all out for God and explained all my fears. I asked Him for favor in a situation where I had no control and no one to act on my behalf but Him. I finally got to the point where I was at peace. I knew that God would somehow work things out for us. There were three possibilities: the insurance would cover as we’d been told, the company would demand the entire balance—which God would miraculously provide, or the company would allow us to make a payment arrangement.
I stayed peaceful the next day, trusting God to take care of the situation. Then I called back. The supervisor was very nice. He told me that his team had been incorrect. The insurance wasn’t going to cover the medication like we’d been told. I took a quick breath. He continued by saying, “We’re writing off the balance.”
I barely held it together long enough to thank him profusely. Our debt had just been wiped away with one sentence! This wasn’t even on my list of possibilities, but God had done it.
Pursue peace. It makes the wait for the provision so much better.
How do you pursue peace as you wait for provision?
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