I have struggled with some situations in our lives recently, and my old insecurities have popped up. I won’t go into those, but I will say that I’ve dealt with them for far too long. I’m not proud of the fact that I continue to fight the same battles over and over, but I am taking steps to deal with these things once and for all. The bottom line is that I must change my thinking by taking God at His Word and choosing to think, speak, and act according to what He says, not what my imagination can come up with (which is some pretty wild stuff, let me tell you).
One thing that keeps coming up in my life is the desire to hold onto stuff. I’m not talking about clutter, cleaning out, and reorganizing. I’m doing a lot of that, and it feels good to get rid of it!
What I am talking about is getting fearful when I “what if” myself into a situation that means I might not have everything I have today. I even get sucked into thinking about what others have that we don’t. (It doesn’t happen often, but it happens.) The problem with this is that it shows that I’m not content with what God thinks I should have at any given time. He has never failed to provide us with everything we need, so there’s absolutely no reason for me to have such a mental stranglehold on stuff.
I don’t remember exactly what our pastor preached about last month, but it brought all of this to my mind again. And then I realized what was really happening:
My lack of contentment is a form of idolatry.
Every time I choose to fret about what I have or don’t have, or about what I may or may not have in the future, I make a choice to not be content with what God has provided. That implies that I know better than He does what I need each day and that He’s not doing a good job of providing for me. It also places stuff ahead of God in my thoughts, and that is idolatry.
Since that realization, I have repented and am continuing my journey of replacing my thoughts with His thoughts by spending time reading and meditating on the Word and by paying attention to what I’m thinking about and allowing to take priority in my mind.
It’s a battle, but it’s one I’m determined to win. I know I can, with His help.
We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.
2 Corinthians 10:5 (NIV)
How do you win the battle to keep your thoughts focused and positive?
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