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How My Small yes Changed My Family in a BIG Way
Reading Rhinestone Jesus by Kristen Welch has wrecked me. I have spent the past two weeks reading it and wondering how I can say YES to what God is asking from me, from my family. But the more I prayed as I finished up the last couple of chapters, the more I realized I have already said YES in small ways that God has used to change my family—and me—in BIG ways.
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I’m watching my younger daughter attempt to crochet a purse of her own design. She is smart, funny, and creative, and I can’t imagine our lives without her. As she once told us, “I’m glad God gave me to this family. Y’all wouldn’t laugh very much without me!” She’s right.
It’s startling to think that it could have all ended much differently. Both of my girls had choroid plexus cysts (CPCs) during my 19-week ultrasounds. This led to general freaking out on the part of our OB and to level 2 ultrasounds in a bigger city where they had all the fancy equipment. And we went through that both times. The difference was that, with my second daughter, there were several CPCs, and they were the largest my OB had ever seen. Before we ever left the office, he was talking termination and was spouting off the timeline we had to get everything done by. I stopped him before he finished telling me all the legalities and told him my yes:
“I did not give this baby life, and I can’t take it away. I will go and have the level 2 scan done, but nothing it shows will change my mind about this. I will not terminate this pregnancy.”
Four days later we were in another city, getting the level 2 scan done. The specialists doing and reading the ultrasound agreed. The CPCs were BIG.
The interesting thing was that, as in our older daughter’s scan, they didn’t find any other markers. We met with the genetic counselor to find out our risk factors and declined an amniocentesis. With no other markers, our chances of our second baby having Trisomy 18, which was the big scare, were not that great. Our older daughter was fine, and I had a peace that our younger daughter would be okay too.
But even if the scan had shown something different, I would have stayed firm in my resolve to give this child whatever life God had planned for her.
By my 30th week, the CPCs were no longer visible on the ultrasound in my OB’s office, so another level 2 ultrasound was unnecessary. Again, there were no other markers visible, so we anticipated nothing unusual.
In a plot twist only God could have foreseen, my younger daughter was born with special needs. Would they have shown up in the amnio testing? Maybe, but I doubt it. Genetics specialists are still trying to develop the tests necessary to test her!
I’m not going to lie. It’s hard. But knowing everything I know now—everything we would go through, everything we might go through, the uncertainty of the future—would I change anything?
No. I would still say yes. God has a plan for my daughter’s life just like He does for everyone else’s. She will fulfill her purpose, and I’m excited to see just how God works in and through her!
And, if I hadn’t said yes, I would miss out on moments like the one that occurred in my kitchen one morning this week:
DD: What are y’all talking about?
Me: Abraham Lincoln.
DD: Oh. Isn’t he the guy who died in that war?
Me: No, he’s the President who was assassinated in a theater.
DD: Oh, right. And he’s the same one who wore the invisible clothes, right?
Me: Are you talking about the emperor’s new clothes?
DD: Yeah, that guy!
Me: Uh, no. The emperor wasn’t a real man. That story is fiction. It’s not real.
DD: Really?! It was a made up story?!
Why would I ever want to miss out on awesomeness like that?
(You can read about another one of my yes moments at Comfort in the Midst of Chaos in Gas, Giggles, and a God-sized YES!)
Update: There is a follow-up to this post, “Saying YES is Always More Than You Bargained For,” at We are THAT family.