A few weeks ago, as 2014 approached, I began praying about what God wants me to focus on this year. The words “Let God” kept coming to mind. I have a tendency to try to do things my way, to force things to happen through my effort—lots and lots of effort. My efforts often fall flat, and I am left frustrated, disappointed, and disillusioned. I realized that God was telling me to finally turn everything over to Him and let Him handle every aspect of my life, only doing what He asked me to do, no more and no less.
Then the holidays came, and my new resolution was put to the test. I got sick. Princess got sick. The illness has dragged on, and while we’re finally on the mend, we’re definitely not back to 100% yet. I have let my Avon business go, watched my blog stats drop below everything I’d worked to bring them up to, and seen my efforts at writing a book fizzle. I received some lab results I wasn’t expecting, which have me seeking God yet again for any lifestyle changes I need to make, and I had a reaction to a new food last night at a New Year’s Eve party.
It’s disheartening. I feel raw and vulnerable, empty and lost. I am praying hard about the direction of my blog, how best to minister to the families who visit here looking for encouragement and support. I am excited about some opportunities God has opened for the girls and me–both business and missions—as we get more proficient at knitting. I’m thankful for the opportunity to ease back into my blog and book writing with the #my500words challenge this month. I know that He has a plan, and that He will restore or replace what I’ve lost in His time and His way. It’s the waiting that leaves me feeling unsettled.
But I’m going to Let Go and let Him do the work He needs to do—in me and in my life.
A Special Needs Mom’s New Year’s Resolutions
So, what are a special needs mom’s New Year’s resolutions?
- I will Let Go and let God take care of what’s out of my control—which is more than I care to admit!
- I will give myself more grace. I’m not SuperMom, no matter how much I wish to be.
- I will be more patient with myself and my children. We are unique individuals, and we don’t have to measure up to anyone else’s standards or timelines.
- I will read, knit, and play with my children more. They’re growing up so fast. I don’t want to miss it!
- I will enjoy every moment I have with my husband. Those times are precious, and I will stay focused and be present in each moment with him.
- I will forgive myself when I fail to do one of these things, and I will try again.
Will you join me? What goals have you set for yourself for 2014?
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- Ultimate Guide to Keeping CHRIST in Christmas
- Aslan’s Academy Curriculum Choices for 2013-14
- Free and Frugal Gifts for Parents of Kids with Special Needs
- 10 Unexpected Benefits to Homeschooling a Child with Special Needs
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